THREE STORMS

HAMID ISMAILOV, SULTAN RAEV, AND TALASBEK ASEMKULOV TRANSLATED FROM AND THROUGH KAZAKH, KYRGYZ, AND RUSSIAN BY SHELLEY FAIRWEATHER-VEGA

Art by Tim Peters

Excerpts from 

Hamid Ismailov, Russian Matryoshka 
Sultan Raev, Castigation 
Talasbek Asemkulov, A Life at Noon

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Ismailov, Russian Matryoshka 


Now I remember a memory from back when I was living in that flat: about how, long ago, I went looking for a friend of mine.

          He was working in the steppes of Jizzakh for the season, “beating around” on a digging machine, and one Friday when he’d promised to come for a visit, he didn’t. A strange and eerie feeling tormented me all night: I tried to telephone the morgues and hospitals of Jizzakh over the intercity lines, but by the next morning I lost patience and went to the bus station. That morning the snow had piled up and there were no tracks in the city, aside from those left by the very first bus, veering off its usual route across the uncrossable city map. It had snowed outside of town as well, where the cotton fields began. After that, it was all steppe. At Kilometer 308, at one bare sector as endless as the Antarctic, there was a sign: Jizzakh Steppe Construction Mobile Mechanics Station. I got off the bus. A blizzard howled around me, and as I walked where the sign pointed me—“9 km,” it said—I remembered what my friend had told me about the wolves who’d cut down dozens of guys out here when they were playing hockey on some remote lake. The howling of the blizzard sounded like wolves sneaking around, and I recalled his approach to fighting off dogs: elbow to the jaw, other hand at the back of the neck as a lever...

          I pulled a waterproof shopping bag over my head and dug up a rock on the side of the road. Now the snow was only murmuring, and instead of a distant howl, the wolves were shuffling around every corner. The road, almost invisible except for the drifts that ran along it, went on and on over the empty steppe.

          By the time I’d reached some trailers parked among poplar trees, themselves indistinguishable from the snow, the winter dusk was falling. An orange K-700 tractor was parked at the edge of the station, and completely domesticated canines barked somewhere nearby. I started to shout. “Hello!... Anyone there?!...”

          The dogs came running, and accompanied by their crazed barking, which neither the snow nor my admonitions could stifle, I walked toward a building with light glowing in its window. A door with half a meter of snow piled against it opened with a creak, and I heard voices. I called to my hosts, but nobody answered. I hesitated and then walked into the room. A television was on in the opposite corner. An armchair sat facing it, and over the back of that chair, somebody’s bare-shaven head was visible. I called out again. The head didn’t move. In this dark room, the light coming from the doorway on one side and the television on the other endowed that head with a terrifying glow. After calling out a third time, I decided its owner must be sleeping. I walked around the tall-backed chair and recoiled. The bareheaded man’s enormous eyes were wide open, looking out over the television. Without meaning to, I started backing up, but then a sudden turning of that shaved head—sudden but slow, almost like a creaking door—frightened me even worse.

          The head regarded me with an inquisitive stare, illuminated by the weak light pulsing through from the open door to the entryway. I said hello. The head nodded slightly. And in this terrifying dull light I started to explain to him, in Uzbek, that I was looking for my friend, someone he might know, and maybe he could tell me where to find him... 

          The bareheaded man stopped me and rasped out in broken Russian: “No unnerstand. Speak Russky.”

          I started explaining again, in Russian, and he said, “Tawelve kelometer.” At first I didn’t understand; I knew he meant some twelve kilometers or another, but I didn’t know why he’d said it. He repeated: “Tawelve kelometer to da place...” and turned his head, with another creak, back to its original position. What were those twelve kilometers to me, even twenty or twenty-two, compared to this someone who, it occurred to me, could have smashed my friend flat with his K-700 at any one of those kilometer markers, deprived of all meaning, given that all the roads away from here were identically empty and endless, except for the path I’d taken here myself...

          I asked what direction he meant. He swung his head vaguely and after a pause said, just as vaguely and noncommittally, “Two daysa snow. Wolve.” He said nothing then, and I stared at the television, which was showing a play about the international recognition of Russia, and tried to decide what to do. Then, without turning to me, he said, “Yesterdi morning he come.” At the exact same time, unable to stand the silence, I said, “I’ll go have a look,” but he didn’t budge, and I went to the entryway to try to open the door to the outside. It creaked and scraped, but like a bulldozer, it pushed snow ahead of it until it collided against a previous drift and stopped short. Steam poured through the open door, some foggy, drawn-out howl came with it, and I no longer felt like going outside. Wolves? Dogs? Only the devil could tell them apart. I went back into the main room.

          This time, as I returned from the fresh air into the staleness of the place, with its stagnant smell of cheap cigarettes, unwashed socks and undershirts, coarse gruel, and coal, I picked up a finer aroma vining its way into my lungs, one I recognized from school trips to the cotton fields. The scent of hashish.

          Now, even in the dim half-darkness of that room, I saw the pack of Belomors on the arm of the chair, the kind they use to roll joints, and I realized the guy was stoned out of his mind. Oddly enough, the certainty of that fact made me feel much better. Now I knew that his oblivion would pass. He looked up at my return and even tried to fiddle with the television, but it was unlikely any other program would get shown out here on the steppe... the actors had nothing to do but play out their diplomatic schemes...

          I was also glad that the door hadn’t completely closed behind me—not because I’d be able to flee through it, but because the frigid evening air was freshening up the room, bringing us both to sobriety.

          Suddenly he shivered, and said, “Calose da door, it’s freezing.”


  

 

 

Raev, Castigation

That day the desert blew its top... A grim darkness swept away the overheated sun... From nobody knew where, thunder clouds came to carpet the sky, piling on top of each other... A sandstorm began... The quick-creeping desert wind, hissing like a snake, lifted the light sand into the air; its dancing funnels sucked up all the trash and filth from the ground and flung it into the air. The scourge gathered strength, more and more, directly over the spot where the Emperor’s body lay, sweeping the sand from the dunes, jamming their noses and mouths... The six of them... and the old man... they all felt the storm was connected with the Emperor’s soul, with the torments it was experiencing. The Emperor’s departing soul was burying all their hopes... The harmless, playful breeze that had sprung up from nobody knew where suddenly transformed into a wild force and, scaring every living thing to death, seemed to have grabbed this arid desert by the shirt, given it a good shake, and thrown it into the sky... When this happens in the desert, it is hard to find shelter or any safe, calm place. The sandstorm wanted to strip their clothing away, pulling and yanking at their skirts and sleeves. It harassed the women most of all, tugging up their dresses, baring their thighs and smacking their rear ends. Cleopatra, embarrassed, tried hard to keep hold of her skirt, gripping it tightly in her hands. The storm wouldn’t let them open their eyes. They set off, following the old man, until they had trudged to the foot of a tall dune, and there they collapsed, pressing their bodies to the ground. Meanwhile, trying to nip in the bud the unruliness of the wild wind, thunder crashed in the sky, lightning flashed, and rain poured to the earth as if from buckets...

          The heavens seemed to have collapsed, and the flood came pouring in...

          While the crashing thunder made the earth tremble, the lightning split the storm clouds to blind the world instantly, with such a bright light that anyone could have found even a needle in the sand. After the lightning, the thunder went on crashing, sending another tremble through the ground, stripping the last courage from every heart. Once every thousand years, in the desert, this happens; all its long-tailed life, all the skittering and slithering lizards and other beasts, and even the masters of the desert, the snakes, have all gone deep under seven layers of sand, burrowing in, seeking shelter, saving themselves from the scourge. The rain began to drill holes through the enormous cloud of sand the wind had lifted into the sky, and heavy with raindrops, that cloud began to fall back to earth... To the seven suffering people lying at the foot of the big dune, it seemed the ground was floating under them; the rainwater, soaking the sand as it mixed itself in, seemed to swamp their hearts and stomachs with sand, and sand rained down upon them. The downpour only got stronger, and at the peak of its strength, it had complete control of the territory. 

          And terrible sights were revealed to our travelers in the blinding flashes of lightning, with an incomprehensible rumbling clamor from far in the distance... The dunes soaked up all the water they could hold, and the water washed the sand down and away... This debauchery of nature, set in an all-encompassing pitch black, when they could not budge from where they lay, when they could not even open their eyes because of the wind, sand, and rain, stole all the will to live from our travelers... The seven of them, lying on the ground where they’d fallen to save themselves from the wind, became covered in rain-soaked sand... now that their bodies were under the sand, they put all their painful effort into moving their heads and lifting them free. Their heads stuck out from the sand, here and there, just like the heads of corpses rising from graves... 

          The storm ceased around midnight...

          The desert is fickle. In an instant, the raging desert calmed; the black thunderclouds that had covered the whole sky, and the lightning that flashed like sabers in a battle, and the deafening roar and endless rumble of the thunder and wind all disappeared, and through the breaks in the clouds innumerable stars appeared, strewn across the sky like spilled millet, and winked merrily; a blissful serenity reigned in the nighttime desert, as if none of it had ever happened... The impervious night, the starry sky... calm reigned all around... It was near midnight when the desert’s madness ceased, the buckets of rain stopped pouring down, and only a gusting breeze seized up the loose sand and spread it everywhere, like grains of wheat in a current, as if covering its tracks... with all their strength sapped, the six people buried up to their necks in sand slept in the night’s embrace... Only Kozuchak shook his protruding head, spat some sand from his mouth, and gazed intently at the sky over the nighttime desert... he looked around. His traveling companions lay covered with sand, like unburied corpses... He looked at Cleopatra in the starlight, lying an arm’s length away... she was sleeping sweetly... None of the hardship they had borne was reflected in her lovely face, and he saw it was as pretty as ever... At that moment, a star tore itself from the sky and fell... Kozuchak thought the sky was one star poorer... And  he was poorer, too. He imagined himself to be a man deprived of everything. His world had become so narrow, and his thoughts meager, just like his body, buried in sand...

          Kozuchak had a dream... In this dream, he was sleeping with a woman for the first time... and as he had sensed he might, he was sleeping with his traveling companion, Cleopatra... Kozuchak had never imagined anything like it, not in a dream and not in real life... In this dream, they were both in the Holy Land... fragrant flowers bloomed all around them, and cypress trees; butterflies played, unbelievably gorgeous birds flew by, and ripe apples bright as flames hung from the trees; golden oranges and heart-shaped pomegranates dropped from the branches... and he, Kozuchak, was there in this wondrous place, in the Holy Land, and so was Cleopatra, both completely naked, bare as the moment they were born... Kozuchak noticed... that the dream Cleopatra was just as lovely and sweet as the real-life Cleopatra... and her pale body was so astonishingly alluring... Kozuchak carefully moved toward her and pulled off her soft blanket. Without that soft blanket, Cleopatra’s whole body was revealed... He gazed at her hungrily, devouring her beauty, and as he tried to let his eyes, brimming with love, have their fill, he moved, carefully, so carefully, and quietly. If Cleopatra were to suddenly wake up, Kozuchak would die of shame... He worshipped Cleopatra... And now he could savor this perfect body, feast on it with his eyes... His gaze moved to her breasts, the protruding nipples, and then lower, stopping at the soft down between her thighs... This was Kozuchak’s first time seeing a naked woman, and he didn’t care at all whether he was awake or dreaming. While he examined her naked body, going out of his mind with lust, Cleopatra suddenly woke up... “Kozuchak!” said Cleopatra, surprised, in her gentle voice. A smile played on her lips... Kozuchak, mortified, blushed all over. But Cleopatra was not the least bit shy before Kozuchak, who had surveyed her naked body, and that made her all the more attractive and alluring... Kozuchak still felt shy before her, and he had covered his private parts with a leaf; when she saw that, Cleopatra giggled quietly, and Kozuchak lost the ability to hide his embarrassment, and he laughed loudly along with her... When Cleopatra pulled him to her and pressed herself close, Kozuchak felt his penis thrusting forward like a pointed stake... the woman’s intoxicating aroma delighted him... When Cleopatra grabbed and squeezed the banana leaf that covered his most intimate part, Kozuchak felt something stunning... Cleopatra tore the banana leaf away... and pressed herself to him again... What happened next, Kozuchak couldn’t remember, because he lost his ability to think. His amazing dream, full of pleasure, broke off just at the moment he sprayed his seed... When he opened his eyes, he saw he was still in that desert, cursed of God, with his head poking out of the sand and more sand pasted to his salivating mouth…

          The heads of his traveling companions stuck out here and there in both directions... Not far from him was Cleopatra’s head, lit by the moon... With a barely noticeable smile on her lips... maybe Cleopatra was dreaming of Kozuchak, too... Kozuchak had made love for the first time in his life, and so what if it was in a dream?... He felt as if he’d become a real man... Kozuchak had never felt such a heat before, the kind that seized him head to toe, stirring chaotic thoughts in his head and disquiet in his soul. He could not remember a single night like this in his entire life, one that had kneaded his heart like bread dough, although he had grown up quicker than others, and seen things both bitter and sweet in his short life, things rising, things falling. Could this night, which had filled his breast with new sensations, filled it with the heat of passion—could it have burned away his whole essence? How could Kozuchak have known that this miraculous night would turn his whole internal world upside down, rob him of peace, burn him with fire, and that this one inconceivable dream would shake him so powerfully that he was soaked in sweat and couldn’t catch his breath?

          That night, in the middle of the desert, after a wild sandstorm, there was nothing but peace and quiet...

          There, before dawn, not a trace remained of the storm that had passed through...       

          The desert slept serenely, glowing as if rinsed in milk...

          ...The dawn began to be born... The storm had vanished, leaving no tracks, only a deep calm... The desert slept peacefully, covered in a blanket woven from the wool of sandy sheep... 

 

  

 

Asemkulov, A Life at Noon

 

When the sheep at the edge of the flock stirred in alarm, Adzhigerei shook himself out of his reverie and looked around. The world had changed. The sun, which had only recently been caressing everything with its silver rays, was blocked out by a thundercloud. Shadows lay in great dark stains on the ground. The thick layer of frost had melted and turned to dew. Water trickled off the sheep’s coats as they grazed. A fall breeze, as fragrant as if somebody was warming honey in it, flowed across the steppe like a river. Adzhigerei breathed in a chestful of air. He could taste a biting cold. A thought flashed through his mind: there was going to be a storm. The needlegrass with its silvery feathers, and the wormwood, and the caragana bush that hadn’t yet dropped its seed pods, and the dropwort. The animals grazing on the rich autumn grass kept moving, never lifting their heads. Adzhigerei, his heart in the grip of some sweet sorrow, squirmed in his creaking saddle and looked this way and that. The sky was now completely tiled with clouds. The first lashing gust of wind flew in from the horizon, looming gray in the distance. Torytobel, who had been nibbling at the grass and occasionally stomping a foot loudly, lifted his head and stared intently eastward, into the wind.

          The cold grew more intense. Unable to withstand the blistering cold wind, the earth and the grass, which had only recently been glimmering with dew, and the whole brilliant world, instantly went dry and pale. The wind grew stronger and stronger, and he could hear in it the breath of snow. That icy breath shot through his clothing. The sky was covered with a black haze. Heavy storm clouds rolled overhead, reminding him of bones rattling, or of giants battling up above. In the sea of gray foam edged in black, too big to take in with a single glance, islands appeared here and there, which were immediately swallowed up in some process incomprehensible to the human mind. Nearby, he saw what looked like a herd of sheep rushing to pasture with a horse as enormous as a yurt galloping after them. A second later, he realized what he was seeing: a throng of tumbleweed rushing away, and one enormous bundle of intertwined bushes rolling along after them, dragged onward by the wind. Shying away from the powerful breath of the terrible storm, both Torytobel and the herd he was shepherding hurried in the same direction. He dropped the reins and put his trust in God. Horse and rider, lashed with the flying mixture of dust and snow, were encrusted in dirt. Adzhigerei no longer knew where he was. Both sky and earth had disappeared, transformed into one roaring ocean. If he hadn’t felt Torytobel moving, he never would have known the horse was still walking the earth. There was no way to tell which way the storm was blowing. Now from the right, now from the left, now it seemed to press in from both directions, and then suddenly the earth seemed to split in two, and the storm blew down from above. Suddenly, his ears felt stopped. Nature’s vicious game, the white sheep that occasionally popped into view as they scattered before the gusts of wind, the uneven pace of Torytobel’s splayed back legs, stumbling more than ever—all this dwindled to nothing. The whistle and boom, the cold breath of the storm, could no longer be heard. He felt like a bull calf knocked off his feet by a blow to the ear. A deadly silence. No matter how hard he forced himself to listen, not a single sound came to him from the outside world. After the sounds disappeared, things seemed to get brighter before his eyes. The world which had just been twirling like a spindle was now only rippling, slowly. He was surprised, unsure how this dull, gray world had transformed into something brilliant and bright. And he went on drifting in the current.

          He didn’t know how much time had passed. He woke up only when a cold lick of air touched his breast. The blizzard had quieted. The fall breeze, like the bird Samruk out of myth, soared smoothly over the steppe. The snow had turned into a warm rain. He looked around from the saddle, trying to get oriented. He had traveled a good distance under the buffeting wind, all the way to the Jinishke river, which flowed about twenty kilometers from the aul. This was its bank. Here was the enormous poplar growing almost right on the precipice. It had lost its leaves and was propping up the sky with its naked branches. Its broken, crooked branches were thick with ravens, like jet-black apples burnt by the sun but not yet fallen to earth. An immense multitude. Suddenly, the tight rows of ravens started to caw all at once. Their raspy calls made the sky crack and split. Then, the birds took off together in a sputtering racket of wings. As if the sky had broken apart, and the black, black leaves were fluttering to the ground... Black ravens.... People say they signify evil and death. Yes. Death. But whose? One day has passed, one day has died. Was it his death? No. Nature, in its wisdom, bemoans the death of one out of so many people born to it. Heaven and earth, this gentle rain that sprinkled with no end, weep for just one person: you, and through you, countless generations of people, those long since departed, and even those of today, those still alive. But if death is truly all-powerful, then grief, too, will die one day. Not even grief can last forever. Yes... If it is true that life is death, then it must be just as true that death is life.

          The bleached sky yawned open, and the ruby sun appeared. In that light, the tears of September poured like red coral onto the earth. An unbounded happiness swelled inside him.

          The herd of sheep, wandering along the river, took a sharp turn and climbed up to the top of the rise. The gentle, warm wind, the kind that does not congeal fat, was blowing again from the right, from the east.

          Far away, the sun was sinking behind the horizon, painting the leaden clouds the color of the evening twilight. He gave the horse a nudge with his heels and hurried off.